Before I Was a Mom 

 

Before I was a Mom…

I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom…
I slept as late as I wanted.
And never worried about how late I got
into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth every day.

Before I was a Mom…
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words
to lullabies.

Before I was a Mom…
I didn't worry whether or not my plants
were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was Mom…

I had never been puked on,

Pooped on,

Spat on,

Chewed on,

Peed on,

Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom…
I had complete control of my mind,
My thoughts.
My body,
And my time.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom…
I never held down a screaming child,
So that doctors could do tests,
Or give shots.

Andrew Thomas 6 days old

Landon Joseph 6 days old

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

A sick Andrew & Landon March 2008

I never got gloriously happy over
a simple grin.

Caden Anthony @ 9 months

I never sat up late hours
at night
Watching a baby sleep.

Caden Anthony 2 days old

Before I was a Mom…
I never held a sleeping baby just because.
I didn't want to put it down.

Landon & Andrew 1 week old

I never felt my heart break into a million
pieces.
When I couldn't stop the the hurt.

Landon 2 weeks old

I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

My boys July 2009

Before I was a Mom…
I didn't know the feeling of having my
heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to
feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know the bond between a mother
and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.

Mother's Day 2009

January 2010

My Boys 2010

Before I was a Mom…

I had never risen in the middle of the night .
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
The joy,
The love,
The heartache,
The wonderment,
Or the satisfaction of being a
Mom.
I didn't know I was capable
of feeling so
Much before I was a Mom!